Constant Dreamer

I'm laying in bed. I can't sleep. I'm wondering what the hell is wrong with me. Why am I feeling so overwhelmed with emptiness? Asking myself why my optimism has been overrun with cynicism. I know why. I refuse to admit it to myself let alone anyone else. This feeling consumes me and I'm allowing it to overtake my life, who I was and who I want to return to being.

I am scared of failure. I always place unrealistic expectations on myself. I constantly dream, and I'm scared of waking up in a nightmare full of disappointment.

Now it's time for me to realise everything I have, instead of realising and reiterating where I've gone wrong, what I've missed and what I can't have. Because part of accepting your past in order to move on, means realising your accomplishments, taking a deep breath, looking around and enjoying them.

Take a deep breath. It's time to move on. Nothing is real until you let go completely. Success is forever. Failure is temporary.